How 2 Love Our Cops

To the One Who Wants Out

Last night I heard that another law enforcement marriage looks like it’s ending. A couple from my own church. And it grieves me. Because I believe that those who stand up and stand in the gap deserve better. And those who love them and are willing to sacrifice parts of life that others don’t deserve better than this as well.

Well, I was inspired. And here’s what I wrote:

This is for the one who serves and protects. You, who stands up for us and puts your life on the line and says, “I will not let you” because the act is destructive. It hurts others, causes chaos, and even though this thing that the criminal wants to do may seem good to him at the time, it will ultimately lead to destruction of his own life. Thank you, thank you for putting on your uniform day after day and going out on the streets and protecting and serving those of us who appreciate you, and those who don’t appreciate you.

I have heard that you want out. That you are tired of the life that you have made with your spouse and you are daring to think that a life without her would be better. You have walked away, shut down the love, and have been looking elsewhere.

I acknowledge that you work long hours. That the job takes its toll. That you see things that people do to each other that are inexcusable. You’ve seen that life isn’t fair. You’ve seen who people are at their worst. Your job as a peacekeeper is difficult and lonely.

I acknowledge that almost three out of four police officers experiences divorce. It’s become a common thing – an expectation even – something that your leaders will tell you up front you’re headed for. So don’t even try. Lower your expectations, get what you can out of each relationship, and then when it gets tough, just cut bait and leave. Move onto wife number two. It’s what cops do.

I acknowledge that that person you married is difficult to live with. She doesn’t understand. She complains. She doesn’t seem happy. You’re not getting enough sex. And chances are, she doesn’t look like she did when she walked down the aisle to pledge her life to you.

I acknowledge that your life isn’t the way that you imagined it would be. It isn’t what you want anymore. That it’s been this way for so long that there’s no point in trying because you’re so tired and worn out and it’s just not worth the work to try anymore. You’ve been pushed beyond your ability to stay.

I acknowledge that there are others who look at you in your beautiful uniform and desire you. They are ready, willing and able to please you. They seem to understand, especially if they are wearing the same uniform. You’re beautiful. You’re desired. You’re feeling things you haven’t felt in a long time.

But it’s a lie.

All of it.

Being a cop does not mean that you have to be alone. It does not mean that you will get a divorce. This is, pardon the pun, a cop out.

I appeal to you as a warrior. You are willing to stand up and say NO! To fight for what’s right. You’re willing to lay your life down for this. Why, as a warrior, are you so unwilling to fight for your own marriage? For your family?

Your wife is a human being. Complex. Difficult. Hard to understand. And so are you. Complex. Difficult. Hard to understand. And your job makes things even more complex, difficult, and hard to understand. You put your life on the line, and you know what? So does she. She puts her sense of security on the line. She puts her heart on the line. She says, if something happens, I will make up the slack. I will carry on the family in your stead. And while your crisis-driven career makes your lives tumultuous, she says I will support, I will flex, I will go to things alone, I will let go of my expectations, I will do what is needed to make us work.

Who does that? Who would put up with that? Someone who is fiercely in love. Someone strong. Someone who has deep character. Someone who deserves that fierce love back. Someone who will serve and protect the life that she herself is willing to sacrifice for. She doesn’t deserve to be walked away from.

A long life together is a life of seasons. There will be winter seasons – when life is colorless and there isn’t much sex and it isn’t as you imagined it would be. But if you stick with it, and make choices to invest in your relationship, the spring will come, the summer will come, and it is continually a life of adventure, and pain, and happiness, and history, and goodness.

I appeal to you as a discerner. When your gut is telling you that something isn’t quite right, you put yourself on alert. You get in defensive posture, ready to take on the threat that you sense. But why do you allow yourself to be lulled in by beautiful women? A person who is willing to enter into a relationship with a married man is nothing but a thief. She’s willing to take something that isn’t hers because she WANTS it. Don’t you arrest thieves? Why?

She may be hot, but she’s selfish. She may seem to understand, but it really is all about her. And she may be willing to have sex, but she’ll dig her claws into you and destroy your marriage, your kids, your wallet, and your soul. And when she’s drained you dry, she’ll move on.

I appeal to you as a man in blue. Why have you stopped protecting your marriage? Why have you stopped serving your marriage? Because it was too hard? Because you’re too tired? Those cops who turn and run in the face of difficulty are called cowards. Stand up and be the brave man that you are.

You took an oath. To love, honor and cherish till death do you part. When did you stop loving? When did you stop honoring? When did you stop cherishing? Go back there. Start again. You have a choice to stand in the gap and say, NO! No divorce. No bad marriage.

As one who has put her heart on the line, she deserves it.

As one who has put your life on the line, you deserve it.

This is for the one who serves and protects. I’m appealing to you, to stand up for your marriage and put your choice on the line and say, “I will not give up.” Because leaving is destructive. It hurts others, causes chaos, and even though it may seem good to you now, it will ultimately lead to destruction of your own life.

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  1. leann on September 19, 2012 at 5:25 pm

    I have such joy in my heart after reading this… I felt like you were talking to my now ex husband who is a cop! We’ve been divorced for 7 months and have a 3 year old son…my ex divorced me and claims he’s been uhappy for years and tried to make me believe i was unhappy which isn’t true… I loved him fiercely and still do…but i knew the truth… He left me.for another woman…who by the way is 38… My ex is 28… And she is still married ( has money too) but she is separated from her husband… I know looks aren’t everything but when I’ve been told for so long (7years) that my ex was attracted to women who are light skined. Long blonde hair. Lots of makeup… And too see This woman…Omg! Complete opposite! Spanish looking. Short black hair. Wears no makeup… I’ve developed a complex ontop of the one i already had… Everything u said in ur post was dead on…i heard it all from
    him… He wasnt happy for a long
    time. He wasnt getting sex. He’s tired. Hes stressed. Throes no money. Literally everything! he is currently living with this woman now… He hides it though… Never drives his personal car to her house or his police car… He drives his
    under cover car…and they have
    second cell phones, im sure so her
    husband has no evidence when their
    divorce is final…everytime im around him he has something new ( a necklace is the most recent…he claimed to hate jewelry, that’s y he couldn’t wear his wedding band…which i graciously understood) new clothes, cologne, etc… He says he has no money for anything but always has something new…i know where its coming from though… He claims he hates me because of apparent rumors that have circulated the PD that i have apparently started which again, isn’t true… He tried to “fix his family” for 2 weeks in may… And because of a disagreement he said he couldn’t do it…he coukdbt be the man i needed home to be. He couldnnt commit. He couldn’t make his feelings fir me come back ( coulda.fooled me when he was trying to have sex with me at his home, but it was too soon)…the next day he was living with this woman… And has been since… Has threatened to have me arrested and warrants put on me.for stalking and harassing because i called him just to understand what happened…not even crying or begging, just talking… And because i made friends with fellow police wives i confided in them…he didn’t like that… So i have had to lose some wonderful friends over this too… Any advice or help? Thoughts? i know im not perfect and made mistakes to…no one goes into a marriage knowing how to be the perfect wife/husband… But i was always there and i have always loved him…

  2. Anna Bauer on September 21, 2012 at 1:35 am

    Amen. The secret to staying together, is staying together.

  3. Kathryn on September 21, 2012 at 11:05 pm

    Wow Vicki – thank you for writing this. I’m not a police officer or the wife of one, but I am more educated and moved to compassion for the challenges that they face because you wrote this. Well done.

  4. Natalie on October 3, 2012 at 4:04 pm

    My husband works for a small department (11 patrol officers) There are only two marriages still in tact. Lost two families in the last couple months. Watching others fall apart makes me dig into my marriage and try to see where the weak spots are. Times are tough for us right now, but I feel inspired by your post and I may read it to my husband tonight. We can always use a refresher about what we are fighting for.

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